03/02/2016

Lets do this, for me.

I've been thinking about this post for a while now.

 How to get back into blogging without making up some lame-ass fake excuse as to why I stopped blogging...how about some truth.

I have always been very wary as to what people think of me, never wanting to disappoint, come across big headed, snobby, vain even, but somehow those labels gravitate towards you when you begin blogging. 
I enjoyed making the content for my blog but once I hit send, huge twangs of anxiety hit..but why?!
The online community is such a supportive one, with people writing genuinely lovely comments about me what i'm wearing, or just even sparking up conversation with me - I couldn't speak highly enough about the online community.

It's when i'm talking face to face to the people around me about blogging, that is when I feel most judged. Creating all these view's and opinions in my head that they may or may not have of me for blogging, and the anxiety starts all over again. 
Doubts creep into my mind and I begin avoiding blogger because it's easier to ignore a passion of mine rather than set off the anxiety train.

Anxiety is something that so many young people around me suffer from and it sucks. There is still such a stigma around it, but it is getting better out there, and realistically that is one of the reasons that maybe I was able to be more open with myself about it - The fact that I do struggle and that sometimes I do need a bit of help, and thats okay. 

 At the age of 22, i've turned a page. I've spoken to doctors about my anxiety and ocd and I am moving forward. I've even booked a one way ticket to Australia for later on in the year...(definitely raised the anxiety levels booking that one)
But i'm doing it for me, and thats what excites me the mosts..I suppose its my new motto "doing it for me"
Thats where blogging comes back into it, fuck everyone else.. i'm doing it for me, if people want to judge, judge away - i'd like to think i'm in a place now where I can turn a blind eye. If people read my blog great, cheers thank you very much but this is just really an online outlet for me. Writing about things I enjoy, fashion beauty and travel really being up there on the list. 
So here goes, CandidlyChloe3.0..lets do this..for me.

14 comments :

  1. Good luck in Australia! Living abroad is one of the best things in can do to really push yourself out of the comfort zone, couldn't recommend it enough!

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    1. Thank you! I can't wait, such a mixture of nerves and excitement! x

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  2. I spend so much time worrying about what the people around me would actually think before I started my blog, but to be honest I am way too old to care now. Life is short, and I want to live it the way I enjoy it the most.

    Linda, Libra, Loca: Beauty, Baby and Backpacking

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    1. I agree! It's taken me a while to get in the F**K it mind set, but i'm happy so I just don't care for the haters any more! x

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  3. I hope you enjoy Australia and I love this post, it's such a shame how much we worry about other people think when really, we shouldn't x

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  4. welcome back! i didn't share my blog with people for the longest time but in the end you really do have to stop caring about what other people think. so jealous about australia!

    danielle | avec danielle

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    1. Thank you!! AMEN, it hard letting go of caring what people think but once you do, life is great! x

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  5. I can relate to this so much! There's definitely a perception among people that don't blog that's it's this big headed easy pompous hobby and it's kind of intimating to think about! X

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  6. I'm glad you have started It again. I get this kind of anxiety when people talk about blogging to me, but I love writing and creating content and love speaking to new lovely people. I hope all goes well for you xx

    http://www.dotdanielle.com

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    1. Thank you - i'm so glad I have too! xx

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  7. I love this, Chloe! So happy to have found your blog. Looking forward to more posts this year!

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    1. Thank you! Can't wait to get some more up! :) x

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